Photo Week #44

Phew, what a week. My throat is scratchy, and not because of sickness, but because I yelled at Junie almost every single day this week. Actually now that I think of it, I did yell every single day this week. Sad. Sad for her and for me. I hope it's just PMS, but even then, how sad that I cannot just have more empathy for my small child, who is only three - three is still so little! The rage just boils up inside of me when she starts whining and crying for the nth time because I turned on the bathroom light for her or because I didn't bring the right snacks or because she wants to redo something that is impossible to redo. Again and again and again. Why does she complain so much about me turning on the light for her when she doesn't even want to put on her own shoes? So much happening inside her little brain that I cannot comprehend. And yet somehow I still have to provide empathy and guidance and a sense of security and safety... I fear that she doesn't feel a lot of safety when I am screaming right at her. Poor Junie.

So yeah, a week that I am not proud about and am emotionally drained from. I guess one thing I am proud of is installing this new light fixture back at our old house to replace the one that broke. I should have just gotten the replacement cover for the cover that broke instead of replacing the whole fixture, but then I felt stubborn and wanted to replace everything since I had already bought it. And it was looking old and shabby anyways. It took three trips and three increasingly taller stepstools/ladders, but it is done and hopefully doesn't fall down once the new tenants move in...